I'm a Stitch Away...


Did you know that I am a crazy person? It sort of astounds me at times. Its funny because they say admitting you have a problem is the first step, but they never tell you what to do after that.
Saturday night I hit this crashing low. The lowness of it was astonishing. I was not in a good place at all. Sunday morning came and I ended up feeling better, thanks to Trent reminding me that laughing at myself and my absurdity is important and necessary. Actually, Sunday in general was fairly entertaining, thanks very much for that Trent.
Monday came however and things really weren't much better. I knew it would happen. I knew it was coming, I knew it would pass. Its so funny that despite knowing all of these things its still so hard to get over it in the moment.
There was one thing that really helped lift my spirits very much last night, but today I could still feel that clenching nervousness that comes every time. My insanity frustrates me so much. Just now the worry has passed and my horizon looks bright and sunny.
I know that, for the most part, you have no idea what I'm talking about. Its actually part of the insanity, I speak in half thoughts. I think I just wanted to post this to say that life is funny, and also I'm very tired of the election and I just wish it were tomorrow so everyone can be friends again. Also, I was wondering if anyone did know what the second step was? Because I'm pretty ready to move on past this whole "admitting you have a problem" thing...

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Docface said…
The next step is to send me money.
9:30 PM
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