So, I've been thinking lately about what makes me me. I mean, I know there is really only one thing that makes us who we are, and everything else is just an extension of that. This, however, is my list of extensions that stop me from being a clone of anyone else. 1. I aspire to be Mary Poppins when I grow up. 2. I absolutely love juice boxes, I could drink them forever. 3. Chelsea is probably my hero. 4. I fear change, no matter how many times change has turned out good for me, I still fear it. 5. I do have a favorite number, and it is five. 6. I also have a favorite color, turquoise. 7. I am absolutely fascinated by communism and fascism. 8. I love the ocean. 9. Anberlin is my favorite band. 10. I am afraid of cows. 11. I am not a post modernist, I don't think its complete crap, but I'm not one. 12. Cheese makes me happy. 13. pumpkins make me happy. 14. I think that not only can scents trigger memories, but memories can trigger scents. 15. I have never been ...
Human nature is a funny thing isn't it? I have noticed in relationships that I lean towards the side of carefully guarding everything about myself in order to avoid seeming vulnerable in any way. I am certain that I am not the only one who does this. Although The Main Ingredient explained to us clearly in the 70's that everybody plays the fool sometimes, we still try to be the exception to the rule. Lately I have been evaluating myself and how closely I guard emotions, experiences, and fears in order to not end up as the fool. I find myself coming back to this question: when is it good to keep the upper hand, and when is it better to trust and let go?
Today is my brother Aaron's birthday, so tis time for his birthday tribute. I've been pondering really where to begin with Aaron. You see he is my older brother, and when I was younger I was jealous that he got to be born in Germany. What a jerk. Growing up I think he and I had the toughest relationship. We weren't always bondy bondy. I've always looked up to Aaron though. He is really smart. I mean, all of my siblings are smart, but there is something about Aaron's intelligence that is striking. He is almost as smart as me! ;) I think one of the great things about Aaron growing up was that he always gave me perspective on things. I was neurotic in school, probably starting in preschool. Getting straight A's was terribly important to me, and when I didn't, my life was over. I would literally fall apart. Aaron was always there with the perspective. "Lindsey, why do you care? It doesn't mean you're not smart." He'd always hel...
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