A Moment with Henry: Beyond the Sea

I took this on my last day in Hawaii almost five years ago, in the van on the way to the airport.

There are few things in this world that make me happier than watching a Disney movie. Of all the Disney/Pixar creations I have quite a fondness for Finding Nemo that really can't be defined. I mean I LOVE Monsters, Inc. and Cars, and all the Toy Stories. Up and Wall-E are great, and The Incredibles has grown on me (I was somewhat disappointed in it on first watch.) Finding Nemo surprised me I think. So I love it. I love the ending when they play Bobby Darin's Beyond the Sea. Although I think I might like to go Beyond the Sea first, and then maybe no more sailing, if I were to find someone waiting for me, in Fiji. Or something. This song always makes me feel better, about life, as does watching an excellent Disney film.

I have been in an extreme funk this semester and I have no idea why. I think I figure out a solution to my issue, but then, no, there it is. That nagging feeling. Like I'm not doing enough, or working hard enough, or I'm putting something off, or ignoring something, or not being as good as I could be, or I'm not planning my life correctly.

I WANT IT TO STOP.

It is making me crazy.

I don't know what to do.

When I get into a funk I go through crazy bouts of throwing myself into my school work, and then avoiding school work entirely. Right now I'm in avoidance mode, which only exacerbates the problem.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do with my life. No decision feels right, ever. I feel so lost. I know I need to just move forward with a plan, and maybe I am afraid to. Maybe they are all good decisions, but I just don't actually know what it is I really want.

Oh dear blog friends, please help!

Can I just go somewhere beyond the sea?

Temple Beach: Where all my decisions made sense.

Comments

Regs said…
How about dinner sometime this week for a fresh ear to listen? :-)
10:48 AM
Anonymous said…
Avoidance never helps. Do your homework! You have made decisions now you need to patiently continue to work your plan and wait to see,with faith, what the Lord has in store for you.
I love you. Mom
11:23 PM
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