A Moment With Henry: Breakaway

"Do you remember when we didn't care? We were just two kids who took the moment when it was there." - Another Heart Calls
Things about Provo I'm going to miss:
  • going to concerts with Nate
  • Gilmore Girls with Shena and sometimes Smalls
  • Sunday night movies with Stephen, Lindsey, and Kyla (and various and sundry other people)
  • Monday night movies in the park with Steve, Shena and Sarah
  • discussing music, movies, and television with Nate
  • Guru's and Hello Yogurt
  • late night discussions with Shena
  • late night discussions/ book club with Tyler
  • doing anything and everything with Alicia
  • complaining about guys and dating with Shena and Jackie, and sometimes Sarah
  • pumpkin parties
  • evening walks and feeling safe
  • feeding old people lunch (Meals on Wheels)
  • being hopeful about the future, and being surrounded by friends and fun
  • happy memories of being in love, spots of first kisses (and seconds, and thirds),retracing the steps we took on those lost summer nights, being back there by your side
"I see, see shadows, of who we'll always be, when I drive, drive these roads, that made our memories." - Shadows and Regrets
Things about Provo I won't miss:
  • the crappy roads and lack of parking
  • the busses that smell like urine and cats
  • feeling old at 23
  • crappy apartment management, that does stupid things like shred my rent check... >:{
  • painful memories of being heartbroken and betrayed by the one person I loved and needed more than anyone else and remembering when I didn't have to remember when times were better than this
So, in pondering this week, and leaving Provo for real this time to move on to something new, I've had many a song that has stuck with me (if you couldn't tell already.) I hate to admit it, but Kelly Clarkson's "Breakaway" describes my feelings about moving to Vermont better than any other song. I've done a lot of growing up in this small town over the past five years, and I'm ready to see what the world holds for me.

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
I'll make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane
Far away
And break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
I'll make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me
Gotta keep movin on movin on
Fly away
Break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
Though it’s not easy to tell you goodbye
Take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Breakaway
Break away

Comments

Anonymous said…
I hope that even in Vermont, you will still feel hopeful about the future because you have SO much to be hopeful about! I love you and I am so proud of you. See you soon.
Chelsea said…
Provo is like Casablanca, I am convinced. Everyone is just waiting for their exit visas. They may be there so long that they forget that they are waiting to leave, but mostly that's what people do there. I am also convinced that leaving can often be the best thing for many, many people.

And anyways, we all left home at some point to get to Provo; we just forget how to do it again once Provo starts to feel comfortable and familiar, like home.

I don't want to get your hopes up about Vermont, necessarily, but you HAVE done a lot of growing up in Provo. You know how to meet people and make friends anywhere you go. And the church is always with you.
Renny said…
Heh Chelm, I don't know why, but when I read that last sentence, I felt like it was saying, "the force is always with you." I'm grateful for the church, especially because I'll be living in my bishop's basement. :)
You're right though, I keep having flashbacks to freshman year and how I was worried I would fail out my first semester and make no friends and move back home and be the biggest loser on the face of the planet. That didn't happen though.
I think its funny that I always figured that I'd be married by now and I'm not so I have to do it again alone. I don't really think it really makes a bit of difference, but I guess its funny that we make plans for our future but there are so many variables we can't control.
Now I'm rambling.
Mom, I am hopeful about the future. I'm going to eat pancakes with real maple syrup every day.
Ande Payne said…
It was either my love of bullet points and lists or my love of your blog...either way there was love for this post. Good luck moving!
Ruth said…
I'm so happy for you and this new adventure! Your musings always touch me.

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