So I am Sick of Studying, so Sue Me

Well, this is a once in a lifetime event, I am updating twice in one week. Take note, be happy, this will probably never happen again! I just spent the last two days writing the equivalent of a 21 page paper (thats what it all added up to ladies and gents.) While my brain cools off, I decided to stop studying and update my dear little blog. So, lately, I have been feeling connected to a couple of Jimmy Eat World songs. I like them, they express my feelings well. I love Jimmy Eat World, partially because I am so proud that I heard of them way before most of the rest of the world did (yay AZ bands), and they have some good lyrics. They're no Anberlin, but love them I do. So, here are two of my favorites right now, sort of a total capping on my life right now I suppose. They express well the dichotomy of people living inside me. Sorry if this weirds you out. Normally I don't like to get this personal in my blog, but we're all friends here. If you can't handle it I'm sorry, just close your eyes and know I will post again someday and you can forget this ever happened.
Well, you're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will
Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance? (chance?)
Or only one way that it was always meant to be (be)
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmeiser song goes
It's just like being alone
Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain (vain)
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means (means)
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away
So go on love
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Got to take what you can these days
There's so much ahead
So much regretI know what you want to say(Know what you want to say)
I know it but can't help feeling differently
I loved you, and I should have said it
But tell me just what has it ever meant
I can't help it baby, this is who I am (am)
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel (feel)
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
Or looked down on
Just try your best, try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.
It just takes some time, little girl in the middle of the ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything will be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)
Hey, you know they're all the same
You know you're doing better on your own (on your own)
So don't buy in.
Live right now
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough
For someone else
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)
Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out Or looked down on
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts, are gonna say
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright).
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything It'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)