So, I've been thinking lately about what makes me me. I mean, I know there is really only one thing that makes us who we are, and everything else is just an extension of that. This, however, is my list of extensions that stop me from being a clone of anyone else. 1. I aspire to be Mary Poppins when I grow up. 2. I absolutely love juice boxes, I could drink them forever. 3. Chelsea is probably my hero. 4. I fear change, no matter how many times change has turned out good for me, I still fear it. 5. I do have a favorite number, and it is five. 6. I also have a favorite color, turquoise. 7. I am absolutely fascinated by communism and fascism. 8. I love the ocean. 9. Anberlin is my favorite band. 10. I am afraid of cows. 11. I am not a post modernist, I don't think its complete crap, but I'm not one. 12. Cheese makes me happy. 13. pumpkins make me happy. 14. I think that not only can scents trigger memories, but memories can trigger scents. 15. I have never been ...
Human nature is a funny thing isn't it? I have noticed in relationships that I lean towards the side of carefully guarding everything about myself in order to avoid seeming vulnerable in any way. I am certain that I am not the only one who does this. Although The Main Ingredient explained to us clearly in the 70's that everybody plays the fool sometimes, we still try to be the exception to the rule. Lately I have been evaluating myself and how closely I guard emotions, experiences, and fears in order to not end up as the fool. I find myself coming back to this question: when is it good to keep the upper hand, and when is it better to trust and let go?
Okay, here are the things I want to say to you: 1. I had an awesome summer and I took a lot of pictures. You can check them out here . 2. I really like driving by myself along the interstate. Stella, Henry, and I had a lot of bonding time. We're all very close now. 3. I'm really grateful I have a good car that never broke down once. I pray she remains that way. 4. I won't tell you who I wished was sitting next to me sometimes while I was driving because it is completely ridiculous. I will tell you the conversation I imagined us having in my head. I would tell him I don't like driving at night, it stresses me out. Then he'd laugh at me and make some comment about how that is because I'm a girl and crazy. Then I'd say yes I AM a girl and I AM crazy and I don't like driving at night. Then he'd laugh again and shake his head. Then he'd offer to drive, but he'd say it like this, "I can drive if you want" as though it's a ...
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